[lovespandp]

*Sigh* I woke up today just feeling blah. I am missing my Dad so much. He died in 2002 its been 9 years. People told me it would get easier, but I don't see how. All I want is to see him one more time, give him a hug and tell him I love him. I think about him all the time.... I am trying not to get into my depressed state, but its really hard. Its hard to put it behind me and not think about it. I would give anything to see him again. I haven't had a dream about him in a long time as well.. I don't want to say that I am forgetting him, but it is hard to remember all the memories I had with him. It's a really hard thing to deal with, I just had to get it out.. I hope I will be able to get out of this state and try to think positive.

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