thanks everyone. that makes me toughen up a lot. it's not about my emotions. it's about giving my heart and time to someone that only needs a companion to be with them and care about them as they take the journey into their last days. I believe Bentley can provide those loving moments and bring some back to happy memories by just loving him and petting him. He is so cuddly and sweet. he needs people and people need him. i hope we can bring smiles to our new friends and learn lots about gracefully bowing out of life and into what's next. this may make me so much more understanding and less afraid of things. i do have a peace in me knowing what happens when i die. that peace of Christ is what makes me live my life without fear of doing big things. i know my time is already determined so why bother worrying about it for today. i hope and pray that I can do this and be strong and caring to others. |