Yes my husabnd has many emtions going on right now. He had 2 nightmares (as he calls them) that David was knocking on the back sliding window asking where his trailer was. And the other was about the time we went to go see him and David and he was telling Tim that he was so sorry for doing this to us. Tim just chuckeled and said actually you did it to yourself. Well he hears his fathers voice and saying "I'm sorry" and I know it's getting to him.
I try and get him to open up but I don't want to be too pushy. The other day he came home from work and started playing with my son with the football. I told them to take it outside and when they were done, Tim came in and said "you know my dad and I never did play. Not once do I remember him ever being there. He left when I was 3 and I would see him once ever few years. I can not imagine him not wanting to play catch or even wanting to get to know me when growing up" I can see that he was starting to get watery eyed. I didn't know what to say. I gave him a hug and a kiss and just left it alone. I feel so bad for him and just don't know what to do for him or tell him.
__________________ Monica, Proud mom of Gus who is forever missed! And new mom to Leiloni Gus's Dogster page |