Thanks everyone, lately Ive been feeling down and out big time. But I know, life goes on and once Im past this challenge I'll be here to deal with the next one. I think Yorkietalkjilly (sorry if I have that wrong) said to look outward and I think she is right. I think I have a hard time dealing with the fact that my life did not turn out the way I planned it, I'm such a planner, but I just need to reorg my life and accept it all, find joy in other ways and make it all work!