This is totally your decision. Do not let the "what if's" be your reasoning for making your decision. Only you know what it is that you will able to do and handle when the time comes. You might even change your mind at the last moment and surprise yourself with whichever decision you make.
It is never easy to say good-bye but don't let this weigh on your mind to the point that you are missing out on what time you have left with Rufus. Enjoy each and every precious moment that you have now.
Best of luck with whatever decision you make and hugs to you for having to go thru this. Just remember, as hard as this is, it is part of life. Focus on all the good times that you and Rufus have shared and are sharing, hold on the those precious memories and don't let this be the last thing that you remember of Rufus. |