You love Rufus so much, and you've given him that love for all of these years. It seems you've grown up together. I really respect the thought you've put into this, and you must do what your heart tells you is right. Rufus will be surrounded by those who love him, and you are not deserting him. I needed to be there with my little girls, but I don't think my husband could have beared it. He loved them with all of his heart, and they were his babies. He was there for them their entire life, and would have done anything for them. Everyone handles things differently. Give Rufus your love now, all that you can give him. If you can't be there for Rufus when he passes away, your parents will show him love and comfort. |