I was so strong before we knew we had to take Boog in and put him to rest...once I realized it was time I got scared and fell apart, I just knew I couldn't go in that room.
But, I pulled myself together and realized that Boog had been with me everyday for almost 13 years...he helped me get over a very serious illness, he was with me no matter what...he gave comfort to many of our foster children...he was my comfort when my husband was in the hospital for several days...he was our auction buddy and would nap on the pile of quilts I purchased at many auctions and everyone knew him...he was in a deadly head on accident with us and we all made it through...he was my little buddy, my little clown and, in many cases, my strength...he helped me out of my shell of shyness because I had to talk to people when he was with me, it was unavoidable because they all wanted to see him...we traveled all over the country together...he was like our child and he was our funny little friend who brought us so much love, joy and so many laughs over the years...he had the heart of a lion and feared nothing but when it got tough or he was sick he just wanted his 'Mom'...we were so bonded.
He had been there for so much and through so much with us...how could I let him go alone at the end when he needed me? I couldn't...so...we got his favorite blanket and we went to our vet and we stayed with him even after he was gone. We had Boog creamated and he will be burried with one of us when the time comes.
Was it hard to do? You bet it was!
Do I regret it? I only regret that he is gone and there as nothing more we could do for him but I have never regretted being there with him.
Would I have regretted 'not' going in with him? Yes, I believe I would have regretted that everyday.
We did what was right for us and Boog...only you can make the decision that is right for you when the time comes. |