I would have been crushed as well. I'm so sorry.
"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but will never break."
That is a Chinese proverb that most adoptive parents of China (one of whom is a best friend of mine). I believe this is true even for us who adopt our Yorkie babies. And it's true for you too. Hang in there. Your baby will be in your arms when he/she is meant to be. Trust in that.
