I attended my mother's funeral this morning. I have to say that I have never been this sad in my entire life. I made it through and am home now.
It was the most beautiful funeral I've ever attended. My two brothers and a cousin spoke about her with the most beautiful words I have ever heard. The flowers were absolutely stunning! She had more visitors than we could ever have expected. She was well-liked by her community. Also, I had so many friends that came, too. It does a heart good!
I'm wondering what I will do tomorrow. Since 1997, I've been taking care of parents. What will tomorrow bring????? I don't know what to do with myself when I get out of bed in the morning. No phone calls from a caregiver, no ordering medicine, no making phone calls to Hospice, no more lifting.......and so on. I can't just sit around the house or clean the house everyday. I don't want to end up being a Stepford Wife. Maybe I should give myself a little time to just sit back and rest, but I've forgotten how to do that.
Again, thanks to everyone who kept me and my family in their thoughts and prayers.