[FlDebra]

Don't beat yourself up. It sounds like you were prepared and had educated yourself on what to do. You also sought vet help and it sounds like they were very persisitent with their efforts as well. It is a fact of life that all puppies are not going to make it. She could have had any number of internal problems that might have made for a painful and sad life if she were to have lived any longer. Sometimes God just calls them back to Him sooner than later. You will often read here that one of a litter is stillborn or dies shortly after birth. I don't think it is anything the breeder has done wrong, just that it was not to be. Enjoy the ones you do have along with your adult Yorkies! You will be so busy with them, you will not have too much time to dwell on the loss of this one little baby. I would say a nice prayer for her and maybe do something in her honor -- plant some spring flowers that will remind you of her each Spring when they bloom, or a small tree that will represent the tree of life -- some very short branches and some long -- takes them all to make a beautiful tree.

I do understand how you feel. I once drove several hours to pick up a little pup born with a cleft palate. The breeder was going to put her down and another yT member had rescued her but could not keep her due to the time-intensive care it needed. I thought I could help the tiny pup. I tried so hard, tube feeding her every 2 hours. She seemed to do well nd then suddenly went down hill. She lost weight so I took her in to the vet. He said it was the worst cleft he had ever seen and he did not see any way she could make it but he would try to help. As they were giving her some supplemental shots (water & vitamins) under her skin to help nourish when she started having some very bad distress. She did not make it. It broke my heart! I knew there was nothing I could do, but especially, when you try to nurse one along, it tears your heart up when they don't make it. So, yes -- I've felt this awful too.