I just feel like I don't deserve to have a yorkie. I love Lola very much and she hasn't left my side. I haven't let the dogs sleep in my bed for some time now but both girls been in my bed since. Lola always slept cuddled with Zach and they did everything together. Now I've been holding her and cuddling her all day, going for walks and spending lots of time together. Its just so unfair. My house is so quiet without my boy. It was just last week I was yelling at him to cut it out because he loved to annoy his sisters and then play all innocent.