[kjc]

The surgeon says Tink is doing much better today in her recovery from her surgery. His plan is to get her off the IV fluids and IV pain meds, and go to intermittent pain med injections then on to oral meds, and to get her eating. Then, if all goes as planned, she may be able to come home tomorrow. I asked if he would want me to come out to try to get her eating... he thought that would be a good idea...

Yesterday was a bad day for me... it all kind of hit me all at once. Up until yesterday I was functioning more like a robot than a human being. Yesterday all my emotions caught up with me and I was very depressed and crying on and off all day long. I kept flipping back and forth from dissapointment in Tink's diagnosis to anger then to happiness that she survived the operation and back again, but then just overall overwhelming sadness of the whole situation, and I am just totally devastated by this turn of events. Tink is such a happy, vibrant, loving pup... I hate that this has happened to her. At least she doesn't know what's going on, or isn't aware of the full extent of her disease, which is a blessing.
I am so afraid of 'losing it' when I go today to see her. I don't want her to see me so upset. I need to find the strength to 'put on a happy face' just for her, so at least she can keep believing everything is all right. I'm going now, I have to get my 'head' straight so I can try and pull this off.
I'll update again on my return....

Thank you all again for your prayers and support. You are my only link to reality at this point. I just can't believe this is happening to her.