My little girl had dementia the last year of her life, so I understand your exhaustion and the emotions you have. She passed away in June soon before her seventeen birthday. Ashley was still very responsive with us but she was also very dependent and needed a great amount of care. She also was on enalapril for an enlarged heart. Anipryl helped Ashley a great deal, particularly her anxiety, and it gave us the peace of mind that she was not suffering and still a happy little girl. In our daily walks she started to sniff around and be alert once again, and I was thrilled to see that happen. We would have done anything to protect her from harm, so I know the worry you feel. If there are any questions you have or need the support of someone who has lived through it, just let me know what I can do. Every second with Ashley was precious, and I am grateful that I was able to have the time I had with her. I know people didn't understand why we allowed our life to be turned upside down for our little girl and thought it would be a relief when she passed away, but they were so very wrong. I can tell how much you love your baby, and I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. I'd recommend boots or shoes to protect her paws with the pacing, particularly if it is outside. Though it was enlarged, Ashley's heart and lungs were strong because we walked a couple of miles most days. She was almost never left alone, but she would pace until the point of collapse when we weren't with her. The thread that Bonnie started on Alexander might give you hope. My heart breaks for you. You are not alone here, and there are so many people that understand your love for Tina. You will both be in my thoughts and prayers.
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