Hi there ,
I am so sorry for your loss and the pain of the new puppy not making it. I know the pupy of your dreams is out there for you and you seem to be loving and patient , so you will find him or her.
I know becasue i waited for years to get my yorkie and then my life changed and wasnt able to get the yorkies I had bonded with in my heart, it was a terrible loss that not many understood.
I understand you hurt , and wish you luck with your continued search.
As for you not coming here to be critized , some people tend forget that helping someone understand something doesnt have to be harsh or hurt ,and for that I am sorry .
Best wishes
