I am so sorry to hear about your precious Lola. My prayers are with you and your family. I lost my Abby 2 years ago and I wasn't sure I could make it through it. I have a book by my Psychic Sylvia Browne called all dogs go to heaven and it helped me so much. Nothing will take away the pain except time but you can ease that pain by realizing that Lola isn't gone, she's just waiting for you. While she is waiting she is at the Rainbow Bridge with all the other pets who have gone there before their loved ones. They are all young and healthy again and have green grass and clear waters to play in and many others to run and have fun with.
Let your tears fall, they help heal and if you have a blanket or something special of Lolas', cuddle with it and hold it to you. Even after 2 years I still have Abby's favorite stuffed toy that I cuddle with when I'm depressed.
I also know that Abby never really left me as sometimes I get a glance of her going around a corner and at night I still feel her flop against me like she did before she passed. Abby came to me in a dream and told me that she knew how much I loved her and always would but she wanted another puppy to be loved as much as she was. When I was ready, we found Belle. One day at a time is all you have to do. You are truly loved.
