Thanks for all your support.
Before having ikki i would never understand the strong connection between dog owners and their dogs.
The little one, entered my heart, and became part of my family and from my own blood. Seeing him grow, his personality, his intelligence his uncoditional love, his playfull attitude.
Will never forget him running getting his toys and wanting me to play with him all the time, and when i wouldnt he would lay down somewhere and sigh so loud i could ear miles away.
Whenever i called him , him coming so excited.... and i would pet him till his boredom and literally going away from me.
It's killing me the feeling i could have done something different, and i cant help it than blame myself for it to happen.
As for my ex gf, i told her afterwards that she shouldnt ever got another dog, as she isnt commited enough and dosent have the responsability.
I feel im part to blame here too, nothing i do will turn ikki back.
Thanks for all support, it warmed my heart
I hope time will heal, i feel as i lost a close relative wich i truly loved for, but even worse because of the anger i have in behalf of my ex and myself.
It wont make any difference, but somehow i would like to honor ikki memory and give me some kind of closure. If it was something tragic wich couldnt be avoided it would hurt but i could cope with it, but not this case its like a open wound.
Thanks again for all the support , my close family dosent understand how down i am because of a dog that technically wasnt even ever mine, because he always stayed with my ex gf. (they never had a dog)
Ikki pequenino