 Just need to talk
I just need to talk. I can't seem to talk to anyone I know they just don't seem to understand or they have they own issues that I can't bear to share my issues. I feel so alone in a house full of people. I feel as though I am talking a in a different language that know body understands. I am always asked to do things for others and when I say I can't becuase... people get angry with me. I have to be responsiable for a family of 5 plus my fur family plus I work only part time. I think I am going through mid life crises as I feel my existance is meaningless and I want to change the world somehow. I feel anxious and unhappy. This weeekend I asked my family to help clean up around the house and they all found an excuse to aviod it. what makes this so bad is that I have been asking for a very long time and my requests have continuously are ignored. This is now a matter of mental health. I had a friend visist from out of state and I was so embarrased that I could not even have her over to my house, I had to meet her at my moms. My drain is blocked,vaccum broke and fridge leaks.
On top of all of this my hours at work have been cut and I really need to find another way to make some money. I need to find something that I can do from home because my two boys require help to keep them on tract with school.
I just feel so overwhelmed and just needed to let it out. Thanks. |