If your vet assures you that your little one is not suffering, then I don't think you're a monster for not being able to let her go. I had to face the same decision with my Bungee a few months ago. Even though she was not showing any signs of pain, she was not happy -- not wagging her tail, not wanting to be touched, not eating or drinking. I knew in my heart that she was ready to go and I had to help her. I've had to make that decision for many pets and it never gets any easier.
When I was younger and very upset when my dad had his cat put to sleep while I thought she could live for a few more days or even weeks, he told me that a duty of a pet owner is to put the pet's interest ahead of his own. Once the vet told him that the cat could not recover, he had to decide if he was keeping the cat alive for the cat's sake or for his own. If it was for his own sake, it was time to say goodbye.
I'm not saying this to be unkind -- in fact I'm sitting here sobbing while I type because I know how awful this is for you. All I can suggest is that you search your own heart and you will find the right answer.
I wish I could ease some of your pain, but you know that only time will do that. |