Calvin:
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I had a little girl that I had to say good-bye to, after an amazing 17 year ride. I picked her out at three weeks, and the breeder sent her home with me at 6 weeks. She was my heart and my life for 17 years, and it sounds like your Mokey was for you as well. It was the hardest decision I ever had to make. I thought I would never be happy again, and that I'd never be able to love another dog, as Sneaker was so wonderful. I made it almost a year, when I finally decided to get another. Sneaker has been gone about three years, and there are days when I still cry, and the pain is almost unbearable. Toby will never take her place, but he has made a spot of his own in my heart. He has given me the ability to laugh again.
( I so didn't mean to make this about me... I still don't talk much about Sneaker, and sometimes I just have to. But I wanted you to know that I understand your pain... and with time it will get a little easier. )
Your Mokey will always be with you. Your memories will keep him close. Just know that you gave him the best of life, and that he was loved for 17 years! Celebrate the life the two of you had. He is in a better place now, and not suffering. Try and take comfort in that.
Kelli
Rest in Peace