Thank you so much for all you suggestions. I do try and think of all the fantastic memories we all have shared and it just hurts so bad. And that hurt turns into anger. We almost lost Gus when he was a year old. He was attacked by a German shepherd. But that tiny 3 pounder recovered even though the vets were saying that is wasn't likely he would last the night. But last the night he did indeed! I understand accidents can happen but this wasn't an accident. God must have had a special plan to take him away like he did. But all I can think is how cruel and unfair it was of him to do so!
I am trying to hold it together but it is so hard. There are constent reminders all over this house that I don't pick up or get rid of. Just the other day I got mad at my daughter for cleaning his comb of a few hairs that were left on it from his last brushing. Then I started crying because I didn't think of cutting a strand of his hair to put in his photo album.
I am awaiting the call so I can go pick up his aches but I'm dreading it at the same time. I am hoping it will make it a little easier in knowing he will always be here with me, but after spending a day like this where we used to cuddle and be lazy together, I don't know if I will be alble to take it knowing he is here but I wont be able to pet him, hold him, play with him, brush him or even see him.
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Originally Posted by FlDebra  What a precious picture of your two "boys." That little push car was custom made for them. I can tell you all enjoyed your walks. I am so sorry for the pain you are going through. There is no way to erase it but time will let more of the good memories take over some of the heartache.
I lost my sweet Sadie last year. It took me a while, but I now have a new girl. I am so thankful I made the decision to add her to our family. We were missing a little girl and I feel like she is a tribute to Sadie as well as a joy in her own right. You can never replace a pet loved as much as we do ours, but sometimes a new puppy can make their own place in the family and help ease some of the grief. Only you will know when and if that time comes for you.
Sometimes a photo project to honor the memories of your lost one can be cathartic. I also sent pictures to Lazy Daisy (Dainty Dawgs) and she made me a miniture sculpture likeness of my girl Sadie. I also got one of Ben and a newborn to represent their puppies. I cried and cried when it came in, but it was a happy cry. It looked exactly like her! A tiny treasure to represent my Sadie! I don't know if these things would help you, but I felt like I had to "do" something or I would burst. I will always miss my Sadie girl but feel like I can focus more on the positive memories now. |