Hi Shata, your story is very similar to mine. My little Dior was killed by a pit bull when I was walking him 2 mins from my apt. It has been 2 and half years and the pain when I think of him (which is everyday) still hurts so much. I watched my baby killed in such a vicious way and I couldnt do anything to stop the pit bull. I launched at the dog and tried to get him to lose his grip on Dior but his jaws were locked. I have two permanent scars on my knees from wrestling with the pit and I often looked at them.... The scars used to make me cry because they were reminder of the tragedy that happened but over time ( with some many caring people on the site and God)... I learned to look at the scars as a reminder of my love for Dior.
If no one understands what you're going thru I certainly do. I went thru a period of post traumatic stress .... I couldnt even focus on anything. I couldnt sleep nor just live thru the day. I loved my Dior at the same level as a child.... my grief was beyond my imagination. BUT... God has been so good to me, He led me to this site. I borrowed strengths from the caring people on this site who consistently check in on me. They comforted me only people who love their furbabies can. They allowed me to have a place to breakdown and build up. I promise.... the pain seems so intense but eventually it will get better. Please keep reaching out and let your emotions out. Crying is good at this point as you need to go thru the stages of loss.
I am here for you ... if you ever want to talk. I know nothing I can say will makeyou feel better but I am willing to listen and be here while you go thru the pain that I know so well.
My prayers are with you and I know Dior has welcome little Millie jean in Heaven! They are both free from suffering and pain ..... they wish the same for us.
God bless,
Sandy |