Hi, thanks so much for the reply KJC. And no worries, I'm not offended by any of your suggestions.
For the 1st suggestion, my maids don't have uniforms. THey usually wear tshirts and short pants. Pretty much what I wear around the house. Physically, the only difference I see is that I'm fair-skinned compared to my maids and i'm fatter than them. I'm Chinese so I look completely different.
As for the smell, when we got her the first few days, we noticed that she responded to the maids' commands, like calling her; i don't think she knows any commands other than her name. She knows NO though I've noticed. She would follow them around, when we call her she wouldn't come near us. When I walk her she seem to go near other maids and drivers in the subdivision. Not to sound racist myself, but we noticed she responded to Filipinos more than Chinese. My parents decided to return her coz apparently we can't change who we are for her. We will smell different coz we're a different race. My brother and I voted against returning her coz we were worried she won't be treated with the love and affection that she needs, given her medical condition and demeanor (which at the time we didn't know yet). I went to see a behaviour specialist and he told me to leash her so she goes where i go and understand that I'm the master. So i did that. It was easier at the time coz I was studying for my exams the whole month. He also said our smells probably has nothing to do with it, but it's just that they played with her the first day and gave her a bath and fed her so she thinks they are the masters. So I told the maids not to play with her just yet and to ignore her for the most part.
2nd week, I tried to reintroduce her to the maids by allowing them to play with her, but I continued to feed her and give her walks. I gave her baths too. The only thing I didn't do was give her the meds since I couldn't do it. (but i do that now too) She slowly came around and would follow me around and she'd come to me when I call her. Sometimes the maids would call her and she'd ignore them, then I'd call her, she'll come to me. So I saw great improvement. My parents were convinced I had a chance to correct her.
3rd week she got really dehydrated and since she was given those shots in 1 day, she got really sick. I took her to the vet and left her there for 2 nights. I went to visit her alone after the 1st night and I'd sit with her and pet her and make her feel comfortable. This warmed her to me even more. We wanted to bring her home after the 1st night but the vet suggested we didn't associate our home to treatments given her circumstances. So we again left her there, when I visited I had my 2 brothers and 1 of my maids with me whom she adored; I noticed though she followed me around more than her, so my brothers told me she probably trusts me more than the maid coz she probably sees her as just a playmate. When I picked her up 2nd day and brought her home, we saw some great improvements. She was so excited when she got home, she can't stop wagging her tail. She couldn't stop playing with me and the maids. All 4 of us were playing and she'd still respond to me. She slowly showed her personality, she wasn't afraid to pee or poop in front of us. She wasn't afraid to play in front of us, she likes destroying pillows and chewing on items that are hard. She doesn't destroy furniture though which is a good thing. She became so active and would jump and run when we're playing. She likes to lick my hand and pretend to bite but not really to hard, I think it's called mouthing? She became bold too so she'd bark at guests, sometimes she'd bite if they forget she's around and came too close to her. I never raised my voice but no matter how much i tell her to stop though, she never really listens. She became territorial at first and would bark at my mom if she lies or sits on the couch where she first saw me sleep. My mom always ignored her and told her to shush. I think my mistake was I babied her too much and allowed her to slowly show her personality without correcting her, coz basically I was gaining her trust and I was afraid to lose it by being a disciplinarian. I didn't want her to fear me.
Then last night happened (week 4), it's frustrating coz i've come this far and controlled myself but when i saw her look at me with those crazy eyes, i thought she probably lost her mind and was about to attack me. I was all alone in my room and sitting on the floor a few feet away from her, there was no way I could defend myself if she suddenly jumped at me. My dad told me if she'd bite me she probably wouldn't have tried to bark and just bite me so I shouldn't have freaked out. I showed her my weakness and my anger so now she's confused. My maids have ignored her all day today so she had no choice but to stick with me but I know she was yearning for them to save her or at least pet her and play with her. I allowed it at 1 point and it was really heartbreaking to see, she was giving her the kind of excitement and affection she was giving me before last night. Only this time when I try to play with her it's like I'm punishing her.
So I'm at a loss, my dad says that maybe I should be the one to ignore her and let the maids handle her for now. But wouldn't I be giving her what she want in doing this? I know I should still be the one to feed her and give her the meds, but if I allow the maids to play with her and spend all day with her, wouldn't that make her drift apart? Coz to begin with, she doesn't want to spend time with me anymore so she'll never notice that I'm ignoring her. She's afraid of thunderstorms and when it started she started squeezing herself next to me coz the maids were busy and well, they were ignoring her. I would only give her a reassuring nudge here and there but not baby her the way I used to coz I think it's not beneficial to both of us.
So far, when the maids are not around she follows me coz she has no choice, she's afraid to be left alone in the house coz it's scarier for her. But when all 3 of us are around, I'm back in the discard pile, she'd pick the maids over me again. I'm back in day 1 i think, but not as bad coz she follows me around, but I'm still back there and having to work for it again. Does this mean I can't leave the house all day again coz I have to babysit her and make her feel my presence?
So sorry guys, I'm really really new to this. I love dogs and I had a pet pug when I was little but pugs are resilient and never fearful, at least mine wasn't so I dunno what to do here and only depend on what all of you suggest. I follow them all and try them with her.
To update you guys, I dunno if this is related. I fed her twice today and every time she finished her food. I put lots in there too. She usually never finishes and would test me and see if I'd beg her to finish it and hand feed her or give her what she wants. So I dunno if she's afraid not to finish or if she's just hungry. |