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Its strange this post is here because me and my friend was talking about this yesterday.

After losing my yorkie earlier this year which is to hard to even talk about so stay with me as i think this is the first time i have ever talked about it to anyone. I have always had a dog in my life and i found myself slipping into deep depression after my yorkie passed on as me and him where SOOOO close and i blame myself for him passing away. People couldnt and still cant even mention his name or i get myself so upset i find it hard to breathe. I hated there not being a dog in the house and i stayed in bed for over a month with OH getting the doctor out to me as he was so worried. I didnt know what i was doing, it really felt like i have lost a child its a bond so so special. May seem strange but i have tried to block out everything to do with my other yorkie.... i cant handle it i get to upset and i HATE the fact he is not here, the relisation is just to hard to come to terms with, so i'd rather not and block everything out.

Poppy is like my little ray of light in my life. I seem to have forgot everything about teaching and training... as me and my other yorkie just did it without thinking. Its been hard having Poppy here sometimes and i still get so so upset about things but Poppy has helped me move on and get up in the morning.

Anyway the point i was making was me and my friend was talking about this yesterday. She just told me how much happier i am as she aint hardly seen me smile in months. I told her i am enjoying having a yorkie around the house again and how i could not live without one. She understands as she has a 2 dogs of her own.

I really feel for the people who are not ''dog'' or ''animal'' people as they really dont know what they are missing out on. Something thats so so special, i bond that will never be broken not even in death.