Originally Posted by kjc  Oh my gosh! That all had to be so difficult. Sometimes when disease progresses with a vengeance like hers seemed to be doing you have to really evaluate her quality of life. Sounds like she's had quite a few things going on.
I understand the 'dropping the ball' feeling. Had it bad when my first Yorkie was PTS at 16 years due to osteosarcoma of the jaw, and when I let my Maltese pass away on his own at home of hermangiosarcoma, inoperable tumor on his heart.
I think we get into the habit of doing all we can for them, that when they pass, there's an immense block of time that would normally have been spent on their day to day care, and I was just left feeling like if I could have, should have, would have done more, they would still be here. It is heartbreaking, to say the least.
It's sad too, but we have to decide if they are alive for themselves, or for us. In any event, when they go, they are relieved of their pain and suffering, as our pain and suffering increases immensely at our loss of them. We can only find peace in our hearts to know we did what we could, in the end the result will always be the same. They will be at peace.
It's got to be hard waiting for those results. I will pray that you get the answers you seek, that they put your mind at ease, and reaffirm to you that you did everything possible, in your power. And even if you find you could have done more, know that you made the final decision out of the love you have for her in your heart, and that you helped her by ending her pain, and in turn you gave her wings to fly Home to be with her Maker, and allowed her to go on to her final journey to be with Him. And know that you will see her again... next time for all Eternity. You were her Angel here on Earth, now allow her to be yours, in Heaven. May God Bless You. |