Coquette Thank you much for your reassurance.
Awaiting autopsy results to hopefully clarify what happened. Last night was the first night I didn't cry. I adopted Coquette and her parents when she was 3 years old; her mistress wanted a cat instead of these three guys. She was born dead but was revived. Started having seizures at 8 and was misdiagnosed with GME. After 6 months on heavy duty steroids and anti epileptics the neurologist diagnosed cause as a chiari lesion, tapered steroids and balanced out the epileptics and she was going well. Three months later, a week before Xmas, another MRI and she was diagnosed with a tumour on lumbar spine totally unrelated to the seizures. Surgery was not an option due to location- with nothing to loose, with the neurologist's assistance drove 9 hours in a snow storm to have her operated on three days before Xmas. She survived the operation, the anesthesia and despite surgeon's prognosis, taught herself to walk again. Pathology results - schwanoma tumour. That was three and a half years ago.
Since March of this year we have been tapering her anti epileptics and she has been seizure free. From something like 20 something pills at 4 different times of day, we were down to twice a day that Sunday. Up until Tuesday at midnight she was just about as normal as can be. Wednesday morning 4:30 a.m. she went into status epilepticus, tried valium injections at home; next an MRI showing inflamamation &/or brain mass totally unrealted to the two previous brain events. Seeing she had been such a figher, we decided to take it day by day. Her heart stopped the next morning and we decided to let her go rather than to resusitate, now I don't know whether I made the right decision that maybe with further treatment she would have come through or maybe if had heeded a few warnings signs of the previous two weeks, she would still be here.
I have omitted the details of the roller coaster ride of the last four years but I just cannot accept that she's not here. She was doing so well - still in shock here.
But thanks again for the reassurance, but I feel I dropped the ball.
C.B. |