dear robbie, my name is squeak. i just had a litter of five. i lost one my daughter criedand i held her . my point is that any thing can go wrong.we are not mine readers nor are we god we just do the best we can. i also cant imagine loosing my maggie thaat would be the hardest thing . i imagine like you i would blame myself because i made those decisions for her. like i said once before your baby and mine arent alone. god was and is their for us. take comfort in that and dont second guess yourself or god
