Robbie, I am so saddened for your pain and your loss. Thank God you have Courtney. Seriously. It would be almost impossible to feed the babies every two hours in your condition. I know that heart wrenching physical and emotional pain you are feeling. I know if feels as though you lost a child or a beloved family member....because you did. You loved her THAT much. How wonderful that YOU were chosen to have her. Your grief will go on for a very long time. However, after a period of time, it will start to lessen .... when this starts to happen, please don't fight it and feel guilty that it is starting to lessen. Hug and kiss your other Yorkies, you will see in their eyes how much they care. It will make you cry even more, but trust me, one of them will do something to make you smile or laugh even as tears stream down your face. It is so awsome that the babies will live. You are not to blame....it did sound like everything was perfect. I am sure that you are the ONLY one blaming yourself....PLEASE stop. When we love something and then it is gone, we always tend to try to find a reason to blame ourselves. Accept that this isn't your fault. I will pray that each new day eases your pain more and more. |