YorkieMom - I know exactly how you feel.
I lost the love of my life a couple months ago - and I thought my heart was going to break. Like you, I cried until my eyes were swollen shut. I missed almost a week of work and then cried all the way to work, cried at work, and cried all the way home and after I got home for the next week.
I wondered if I would ever get over it. One day about three weeks after I lost her, I realized I had my first day without crying. But, of course, I cried the next day after that. Now two months later, I am doing so much better. But I still love her and will miss her every day of my life.
It is a terrible pain....the most awful pain in the world. But, I can promise you that time will help you heal.
PS: And, like you, I had a lot of guilt.....I promise that time will help with that too.
Just hold on to your heart (and all the other darling little pups you have) and let time go by.
Carol Jean |