Thank you so much Kathy, Cheryl, and Lisa. Your compassion has really touched me. I agree with you, Kathy, but I think every day was like a birthday for us when Ashley was alive; we really think we cherished each day with her and we tried to make each day special for her. I used to stare at her sleeping, and I never tired of seeing her. She was such a beautiful little girl with the most endearing and loving personality and disposition. I knew every moment I saw her, I would be smiling. She’d play the same little games with me, and I laughed at the same thing all the time. There was always such a feeling of wonder, because she was so cute and special. We rarely left her at home alone, just to go to a doctor's appointment. When we came home, the moment we walked in the front door, my husband would say, "Let’s get our baby." It's amazing how such a little life could make us so happy and how much our life could revolve around her. It was the same way with her sisters, too. We miss our gorgeous little love bug, Gracie, who was our 2.5 pound terror. She came to us at 6.5 months, given to us by our breeder, and she was all personality and filled with such goodness. Our precious Kiwi was such a tough little puppy, but we gave her so much extra love when we got Gracie, and she became a mush. She had such a beautiful, whimsical face, and her eyes sparkled and showed such emotion. She was our deep, sensitive little girl, who had such a comical but super loving personality. Kiwi was the alpha dog, but Gracie came in and really stole the show. She so idolized Kiwi, that when Kiwi died, it broke her heart. She passed away only four months after Kiwi. That little baby was so full of life her entire life, but she missed her Kiwi. Everything about little Gracie was perfect. All of our little babies loved each other, but they were so attached to us. Even though their personalities were so different, we can honestly say that we didn’t love one more than the other. But we loved each of them so completely, and they occupy such a huge part of our hearts. I know that won’t ever change; a love that is so powerful can never die. It is because of how much we loved them (and their older sister, Jolie) that we will bring another little one into our home. It will be to honor their memories, and we are so lonely without them. They (most likely two) won’t replace our precious angels or take their place in our lives or our hearts. The love we feel for them will always be tucked away in our hearts, and we will keep the memories of them alive forever. I know we have more love to give, because our little girls taught us so much about love.
I appreciate that you have allowed me to share my feelings about my babies. I think many people in my life understand, because they know how much we adored our little girls and how our lives revolved around doing what was best for them. Most people don’t understand the depth of loss we feel after losing our babies. That’s okay; they don’t have to, and I wouldn’t expect them to. I come to Yorkie Talk, and I know there are people who do understand. Thank you for your kindness. |