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Originally Posted by YorkieLove77

During my "emotional" time of month (sorry guys!) I sometimes start getting really crazy thoughts about what if JoJo died, or how devastated I would be if something happened to him, or even what am I going to do when that time finally comes (he's not even 2 yet), and I'll cry non-stop. I know it sounds so morbid, but I really don't know why these thoughts enter my mind. I guess it's because I love him so much and honestly my heart would shatter in a million pieces if I ever lost him. Also, I think that since it will probably be inevitable he won't live as long as me that I let my mind think crazy thoughts (this is the thought that comes to mind most often and it literally tears me up inside).

Also, sometimes when he's sleeping I get paranoid thinking he's not breathing so I'll touch his belly or look for movement just to be sure. Am I weird? Am I the only one who does this? I hate having these thoughts, but I can't help it. Oh, in case it's not obvious, I'm a HUGE worrywart.

Originally Posted by YorkieLove77

Yes, I tell him I love him everyday also, and I think I kiss him about 1,000 times a day lol.

I do all of the above. I use to be way more morbid than I am now, so I guess I'm getting better? I think I'm just a pessimist and I can't seem to change that.