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Billie was diagnosed with lymphangiectasia. its a PLE where her belly fills with the fluid from the protein her intestines can't keep in. We went through a virtual "death watch" with her where every day was going to be her last, just trying to find the strength to let her go before the fluid filled her lungs. she had filled to 8lbs from 5, so basically 3 pounds of fluid, it was a nightmare. and then...and then, she seemed to get better. she was put on prednasone and she peed like crazy for 3 days and was back down to 5lbs.

since then (its only been a month or so?) she has been on an ultra low-fat diet and 5mgs of pred every day. she is down to 4 mgs since yesterday. the idea was to wean her off the pred and hopefully maintain her health via low fat diet without the use of steroids.

anyway. billie gained almost a pound and an inch around her belly overnight, even over the last few hours her belly seems to be larger, I am taking her back to the vets for 2pm and I thought it would help me to type this out so I can pull myself together and head down there. today is the first time I take Bill to the vets alone, hubby is out of town until Monday.

I have been so optimistic since Billie started the pred, its almost as if I forgot she has this terrible disease with such a low prognosis, I have been calling her my little miracle. I feel like I am completely caught off guard that she gained so much so quickly. She hasn't gained any since she started the prednaose. I should have reminded myself that she is not okay yet, but she has been so happy and lively and just hasn't seemed like anything is wrong with her...having her so happy and so healthy and then having her get so sick and facing losing her...and then having her seem so happy and healthy again...I just wasn't ready to face losing her again so soon.

I am hoping for another miracle today...