I know exactly how you feel. I had Muffin for 13 of the 15 years she was alive. The pain is so horrible. I will never have another dog as she was the one both my sons and myself could ever have hoped to have in our lives. She was everything. I cried so bad the day I had to make a decision that she cried too, which broke my heart more. But I knew she would not have liked living the way she was the last few days. I tried to make them extra special as I knew what the outcome was going to be. I hated the drive to the vet and just wished she would get better but I was wrong. The VET even cried when I said my final goodbye. I have so many wonderful memories of her and my boys growing up but at times they are hard to relive so I push them back and move on day after day always thinking about her and wishing her here with us just one more day. I pray that you find some peace in knowing that your dog loved you as much as you loved her. Ironically my girl passed on March 22, 2010. |