[capt_noonie]

I'm torn by your post. Glad you realized you were not up to par to do it, but sad that you had to do that to one of your pups before you realized. All I'm saying is if it's your FIRST time and no one has ever shown you in person, you must really have a strong stomach and B@LLS to do it. And being that you're a nurse, and I'm assuming you've seen your fair share of "stuff" (my bff is a RN and she tells me stories), I'm surprised by your story.

So what now? your pups will be left as is? It's too late if you reschedule? Just bc you were too embarrassed to tell your vet what happened? You should own up and just tell them what happened and what you were thinking.

The thing I do not agree with is posting all this info online "so that those of us STUBBORN enough to attempt to learn online will at least do so as safely as possible". Perhaps you wanted to learn to do it safely, but what about others, bybers who don't want to spend the money and end up doing it wrong? Sometimes there is too much info out there for people to think they know better than a trained professional.