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Originally Posted by kodakoda The love of my life, my baby girl Koda, died Thanksgiving night. She was only 2.5 yrs. I can't function. I can't stop crying. I wanna be in heaven with her so bad right now. I am new to this forum. I am so afraid. Koda was everything to me. We were inseparable. She was a 5lb furball and I am a 235 lb ex-athlete that can't stand the pain and loss.
We were walking in a posh Beverly Hills neighborhood at 8:30 pm. I had my baby on chain at my right foot, where she always walked. My friend was at my left walking my other dog. We were talking. I heard a sudden yelp from my girl. I turned and a large coyote had her around the neck and was already running up the middle of the street. God. I cant stop reliving this in my mind. I ran as fast as I could screaming Koda's name. I could see here beady eyes staring at me. Oh god. I felt helpless. I could almost feel her saying "help me daddy". I could not catch the coyote. All my strength and speed from college sports were no match. My baby was taken right before my eyes, in the heart of a residential neighborhood in Beverly Hills.
PArt of my spirit left with Koda the other night. I will never be the same. The past 24 hrs seem like 3 yrs. I am so devastated. I LOVED HER SO MUCH! She is in heaven now waiting for me someday. But damn, I am only 38, if I live to 80 that is 42 yrs away!!
I would appreciate any words of wisdom and encouragement.
Brett |
Brett, your in my prayers. I wouldnt know what to do. I can only say that time heals all.