It is so hard to be strong. She seemed sad tonight and I couldn't help crying. Her first therapist made a comment about "Dogs in her condition that don't have deep pain sensation by this point after surgery..." and we put her in a cart so she could walk around and she showed us how it worked and it just made me feel like she didn't think there was any hope of Layla having a normal 4-legged life. When I lifted Layla to the therapist's arms, with one hand under her tummy for back support, I made her pee all over my leg. Scott tried walking with her with a sling, and that made her pee all over the floor. There had to be something better and some hope because it was so pitiful I cried.
When her surgeon came to talk to us I asked her if this was normal and she said absolutely, the sheath around the spinal cord takes 7-10 days alone to repair itself so there is no worry that she has no deep pain sensation yet.
It has been a really emotional night and Layla is coming home first thing tomorrow morning. I am so drained I feel like I need to either throw up or pass out. It is so hard for me to stay positive but I know I have to. Scott told me that I am the biggest influence on Layla's feelings and if I'm positive, she can be positive and beat this.
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