[randiik]

i have been thinking and i want to give her until wednesday to see if she can recover without the surgery..as of now she is resting sooo much better and i know that she will slowly be out of pain and back to her sweet happy self..
I do have a few questions about giving her up to a rescue.
how would i know for sure that she gets the surgery and a good recovery?
how long would it take for her to have the surgery after i gave her up.?
why is it that a rescue can help a dog but not a good loving owner who would give her as much or more love then a stranger?

i own my home... i had a great job that i loved and because of the economy they closed their GA offices and laid off not only me but over 200 other hard working people. So I was not in this position when I got Roriee.. plus she was born in this house, and it is the only home she has ever known…I might have a lot of things going on in my life but Roriee is my number 1 priority. I will not hand her over unless I know for sure she will do better ,not worse.. I do feel like I came here for advice, but instead I feel like a teenage mother who is being convinced to give up her baby because she cant afford it…that isnt always the right solution. I do not understand why rescue services take a well loved pet, fix it, then give it up to strangers who have filled out a applicaton, had a couple of home checks to see if they are suitable to adopt. If I should harsh then I am sorry, but I have done very well with her until the relapse and I have never been one to make the same mistake 2x.
I have now been diagnosed with stage 1 colon cancer and I was more worried about setting up skype so that I can see my baby then my own surgery. There has to be another solution.. . until this relapse i was going to follow olga’s advice and keep her on a good diet for her liver to not be elevated and to wear her collar, take a very low steriod dosage and not do a lot of jumping activity… older people have dogs all the time and they lead a more seditary lifestyle. I ha ve not decided what I am going to do yet but I know that if she has not improved a lot by Wednesday then I will call my vet for a good rescue recommendation who can answer all my questions and I have to know for sure that she will get her surgery…and I wouldn’t release her unless I knew for sure that she would get the surgery asap.
I still want to find out if there are any options open to me now that I am also considered to be disabled.. although I would rather be healthy there might be more organizations who would help.. I would put off my surgery to make sure roriee was well and healed if I could get that kind of help for her.. I do have people who would help me with her recovery..they just don’t have money to help financially either.. its been a very rough year for a lot of people.. I am not a bad mommie to my baby…