My eyes welled up after reading through this whole thread...which is honestly the main reason why I try to avoid the RIP forum here....I cannot bear the thought of losing Lucky! I now know, I am not alone when I think about how painful it will be. I know it will hurt to breathe....I will not want to eat or drink and all I will want to do with myself is feel empty and tired....
I agree, too, that the day you pick them up and place them into your heart, it is safe to say ..." you are going to be the one to break my heart!!" Knowing this....we still have them....Knowing everything....we still have them. Probaly because the joy and love we get from them overpowers these dark thoughts and feelings.
I am 42 and thankfully have never experienced a death of someone who's close to me yet. Both parents and immediate family are all still living! The only time I came close to death was when I had a car accdent about a yr and a half ago....that's it. I always say there is NO pain to measure the loss of your children....but now I have Lucky to add to that list! |