Oh my......your story is so heartbreaking and really really sad. I have heard of these worms.....but I too think it is really rare to find them in a dog.
And yes I know very well the pain you are feeling.....as do others here. You can come here and share your feelings about Oscar anytime you need too....we all understand. When I lost my Yorkie Toto.....years ago....I actually thought I would die....it has been years and my eyes still fill with tears when I think of Toto. It was strangers on the internet that helped me heal....I had no one who understood....so I turned to strangers in my saddest hours. It was more painful than losing my parents. Your pain and heartache is real and it is great now....it will never go away totally. I would wake up for months and think I heard Toto barking for me to come get him. I even would get out of bed and go to the door before I remembered he was gone. I was so lonely and hurt and I just could not come to grips with losing my Toto.....my husband and family just did not understand how deep the grief was.
But the human spirit is self healing.....over time you will begin to rejoice that you knew and loved Oscar and you will realize one day that you are remembering the good times...and a warm glow will surround you. I pray for you and your husband....for the road to acceptance to be a gentle one. Just remember your grief is REAL....your pain is real.....and yes friends and family do not understand that Oscar was more than a mere pet to you and your husband. What you are feeling is natural....it is a natural human response to a great loss....a loss in which our mind knows we must accept but our hearts just will not let us accept the finality of it.
God speed little Oscar.....may your journey be a peaceful one.
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