Caroline, 4 weeks is no time at all & your loss is still raw. Especially with the terrible way you had to lose her.
It will get better, I promise you, but it will take time & will still hit you like a brick at times no matter how much time has passed.
But there will come a time when the good memories of her will come again, the guilt you're feeling is making the grief extra hard to bear.
Having her buried in the garden near you will help.
I have all my old ones buried in our garden, fourteen in all, each with their own little grave planted with flowers & a headstone.
I often stop & talk to one or other of them when I'm passing their grave on the way to our fields or working in the garden.
Please don't be too hard on yourself. You did all you could, the vet should have been better.
Take care.
xx
Meggie |