[lulumom]

i'm having a hard time writing this but i need to get something off of my chest and have no safe means to do so but here.

i am the sole parent of four. i have twins (almost 17), a 12 year old, and an 11 year old. i love them to the moon and back times infinity but sometimes, i feel completely inadequate.

it was always important to me to instill compassion, empathy, gratitude, selflessness, respect in my kids. i wanted to raise kind human beings. i've put them in positions that would nurture those traits whenever possible.

anymore, i feel only doubt and worry because to tell the truth, they treat me like crap an awful lot of the time. sometimes i wish they would remember that there's only one of me and four of them, and that i'm human too.

i know that people have it worse and i hate complaining. some days are just more difficult that others. hopefully this doesn't make me sound like the worst mother on earth. i love them so...i guess that's why it hurts so much.

thanks for reading.