[JCarlson2004]

As some of you may know, I lost my Katie on Sunday. Then I lost my mom on Monday. I saw the other 2 threads and I want to thank you all so much for your kind words of comfort and prayers. My whole family really needs it right now and they all appreciate it. The funeral is going to be held tomorrow, Wednesday, November 16th, from 2 p.m. - 5 p.m. and then in the evening from 7 p.m. - 9:30 p.m. We decided to only have a 1 day funeral because my grandmother cannot handle 2 days -- it's just too much for her to cope with right now. So Thursday we will go to Staten Island to bury her around 10 a.m.

I'm just so numb right now. First I lost my Katie on Sunday. It was so terrible. The last thing I remember was falling asleep on the couch with Codie and Katie around 2 p.m. Then around 4:20 Jim came running into the house and he was screaming for me to wake up because Katie was hit by a car. I was in total shock because I was asleep and I didn't know that Katie was outside. But what happened was Jim was waiting by the door for our friends to come over for dinner. Jim saw them parking their car and took Katie outside to greet them. While they were chatting, Katie just unexpectedly leaped out of Jim's arms. He said he didn't even have a chance to react because she was hit by the car literally seconds after she jumped. So Jim and I rushed her over to the vet -- which is luckily only 3 blocks away from my house. But when we got there they only confirmed our worst fears. I knew in my head that Katie was already gone -- blood was pouring from her mouth and her tongue and gums were white -- but I didn't want to hear it in my heart. When they told me that she was already gone, I vomited on the floor. I was so sick from shock that I just couldn't help it. I guess it was just all to much for me -- especially because Jim and I were covered in her blood. I was just so sick from it all. Anyway, I couldn't bare to leave Katie at the vet's office by herself so we wrapped her up in a blanket and took her to my parent's house. My dad wrapped her up and put her in the freezer over night.

The next day (Monday), my parents took Jim and I out for breakfast. Then we went home to pick up Katie and take her to be cremated. After that was over, we drove to a park where my dad is a member to fly model airplanes. He had left something there the day before so we stopped by for him to pick whatever it was up. So my dad went to pick it up and the 3 of us -- Jim, my mom and me -- got out of the car and sat down on the bleachers. We were all just chatting and talking and then totally out of the blue my mom said that she felt dizzy and as she said those words, she started to slump over. So Jim and I laid her down on the floor and my dad came running out because he heard me screaming. Jim and my dad performed CPR until the ambulance came but she was already gone. They shocked her 3 times and then continued CPR all the way to the hospital. But she was dead before she even hit the ground and they were never able to restart her heart. She just went so fast. When I found out that was she gone, I passed out on the floor and hit my head. I had to get 2 small stitches on the left side of my face but I'm ok other than that. I'm just so thankful that she didn't suffer or feel any pain. She never would have wanted to be in a hospital and hooked up to machines.

On top of all this I've had bronchitis since Thursday. But I guess that's the worst of my problems right now.

Thank you all again for your kind thoughts and prayers. I might not be on YT for a while because I've got to take care of my dad and grandma. But please know that I appreciate all your kindness and support.

Please say a prayer for my little Katie. The only comfort that I have is knowing that she's already at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for me.