[vainchick5]

Hi ladies sorry I've been MIA I've been dealing with the cancer treatments and trying to also launch my new career. Life has just been crazy and full of ups and downs.

Here's what I need advice on:

My best friend lives 5-6 hours away from me (driving). The last time I saw her was in October and I miss her terribly. We have been wanting to see each other and have a fun girls weekend together but due to financial issues with jobs and such we are both not going to be able to do that in the immediate. So my other friend said she is driving down there and would love to have a girls road trip with me her and my pups. She said she would drop me off at my bffs place friday and pick me up sunday. So I would spend all weekend with my bff in PJs watching movies and hanging out. Due to the cancer treatment prep that I'm going through right now I'm too weak to do anything, even walking for more than a couple of minutes. Needless to say we would just be hanging out at home with the dogs, which was fine with both of us.
So I made the mistake of telling her last night that I was feeling ill and almost fainted again and now she doesn't want me to come. I was so excited I had my movies planned out and everything. Once I get my treatment on 1/27 I can't leave my house or be around ANYONE for at least a couple of weeks. NO one can come within like 7 feet of me. So I thought this would be my last hurray before my house arrest prison sentence.
She says I'm clearly in no condition to travel and why would I want to do this to myself right now when I need to get my body strong. That I should stay home and rest in bed until everything is done and then we can do our trip after the treatments are done. She like I couldn't handle it if anything happened to you while you were here, I would just panic, if you collapsed or got sick. She was like you can barely walk to the bathroom by yourself, why would you want to put your body through so much when you need to focus on getting stronger.
So now my feelings are hurt (prob because I also have no hormones in my system so I feel off my rocker). I feel like why doesn't she want to see me? I was so excited!! I told her too that I don't want to be a burden for her nor did I need a babysitter and she was like you're taking it wrong that's not what I'm saying at all I just care and I'm worried and I don't think your doctor would be happy about this little trip of yours that everyday I'm getting worse blah blah. I guess I'm hurt because if roles were reversed I would expect her to be a good judge of her own health and if she thought she was ok to come I'd be super excited to see her and it bums me out that she's not. I know she is just more worried but it still hurts a bit. Am I overreacting?? Isn't this what best friends are for to put aside their own feelings and be there for you when you need them? I just wanted to escape for a weekend and go see my best friend and so what if I'm weak I won't get any better sitting home. I just wish I hadn't told her the truth about how I was feeling I'm so bummed out I want to just cry. Am I being silly????