[lulumom]

let me add this...

i believe kindness between members of a forum is imperative and i get zero joy out of expressing an opinion that might make someone else feel badly...especially when they're dealing with a crisis. i do not believe that krystal had anything but positive intentions when she first came here and would venture to say that most people are in agreement there.

unfortunately, she was offered what sounded like a miracle from a member here who was simply unable to deliver. ok....so that sucks....but that's life. things don't go as planned most of the time. i contend that a humane person would put their own feelings aside here and go to plan b....which i would think would be to take the darn advice of the people who actually know what they're talking about.

this is not a gray issue. your dog (adorable as she is) will not survive given your circumstances. it sounds cruel and i hate to say it, but you are not in a position to handle her care. you need to turn her over to a rescue. now. perhaps down the line, with education and time and experience, you will be in a position to help someone else who ends up in the same position you are now. that would be the ultimate pay it forward and you could do it in honor of melody.

i believe you are going to lose melody either way. you have two options: lose her to someone who can potentially save her, or lose her to death. maybe both options are hard to think about....doesn't change the fact that they're all you've got to pick from.

please choose the option that gives her a chance.