Just saw this thread and I wanted to thank you guys for watching the video. It was very,very hard for me to make it. It took me a few hours and I cried so hard as I put it together. Each picture brought up a memory I have of him.
Today as I knocked on a door from a possible lead the lady of the house told me " You realize you are not going to find this little sweet thing dont you?"
I realize that is a possibility but I placed my hand gently on this woman's shoulder and told her "If your child was missing for 7 weeks would you give up?" Then the expression on her face let me know she totally understood. She told me "I wouldnt give up" I told her thats how I feel.
I told her you cant replace a child with having another child. You cant replace a yorkie with another either. I said " you can love again but it will never be the same" I'm totally in love with the female yorkie my mother blessed me with on Dec 9th, 2009. But in a totally different way. If that makes any sense.
I dont know how long it will be before I get the call that Ive been praying for. I don't know if I will ever get that call and I dont know how long it will take me to accept that he is gone forever if it is forever.
I know God will give me the strength because if it wasnt for him and the members in YT I would deffinately be in a mental hospital by now. I got that emotional and the pain is physical not just emotional. I did actually feel my heart in pain like someone was squeezing it to death.YorkieTalk is much more than a bunch of crazy yorkie mommies & daddies!
I wish that every person that hates dogs could spend 30 days with a yorkie.
Thank you all.
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