[mnewco]

I got an email from Yorkie Talk wanting to know why I haven't been on the forum lately and that they missed me posting. I know most on here do get these reminding us they miss us when we don't post for a while. It's great that they care.

As many of you know, my mother passed in late September and now on the our 11th birthday on December 3, my fiance passed away when he fell 40 feet from a building. I thought I posted this here letting you all know but I guess I didn't.

My emotions have been running high ever since that day so I haven't felt much like posting.

We also share a 7 year old daughter too. They are so young that it hasn't affected them yet. They just know that their Daddy is not coming home from work anymore and that we will see him again when we join him in heaven when the time arrives for us to go. I know it will hit them more when they get older and I hate the thought of having to relive that nightmare again when the questions start coming later when they are older. He was only 54 and I miss him so much and love him so much as he was my soul mate. The feeling is so much more painful than when I lost my mother.

I will never get over this nor will I ever forget it.

When we had a tropical storm on November 12 and we lost power for two days, I was scared when he was not here at night because he had to go out in the storm for an important reason I won't go into but the point is he called me and I told him I am so scared and I want him home to protect me and he said he would always be here to protect me and keep me safe and now he is gone just like that. He won't be here to make me feel safe when we have blackouts during storms anymore.

I posted this on this part of the forum because I know more people read it and wanted you all to know why I haven't been on here much since September. My whole life has been turned around. I never realized how hard it is to raise two young children on my own until now. I don't know how I am going to do it without God's help.

Please pray and or think of us in your prayers and thoughts.

Much appreciate it from me and our two young children.