I'm so glad to hear that you are finding comfort in Monica. She was definitely sent into your life for that reason. Its good that you are trying to get some normality back into your life, for your sake and the sake of your family.
Hopefully someone somewhere is taking really good care of cookie, and lets hope they soon find it in their hearts to return him to you.
meanwhile, take good care of yourself, live in the moment and try to enjoy something each day, however small.
sending hugs your way.
