I feel the tears that you cry. I am also the outcast in my family. My mom was married and my dad died before I was born. I have a sister and 2 brothers
that are all close with my parents. I was shipped off to boarding school at 14. My dad was a very mean abusive alchoholic and my mom did not protect me with caused me to rebel and get in trouble. My parents never spent any time with my children but they do for my siblings children. My children are grown and my daughters have had children out of wedlock even though I raised them in the church so now they are shunned by my parents and siblings. I am stuck between the hurt and all children are gifts from GOD. He doesn't make mistakes. My children will not be going to my parents Christmas Eve fior the first time and they are all in their 20's. It is going to be hard to see the family minus mine together Chrismas Eve because of babies. I barley see or speak to my family and I will probably only spend alittle time with them this holiday. Its so sad all the hurt and pain over babies born. |