 Missing someone
I can truly understand your feelings. My mom was my best friend and she died at Christmas 18 years ago. I still feel like it was yesterday. I was adopted and told my birth mother died after I was born. Six years after my mom died I found out that my birth mother was alive and the adoption service contacted her for me. I lost my mother all over again as she wanted no contact with me, she never told her husband or kids about me. She was 15 when I was born. It really hurts when I know I have brothers and sisters but don't know where. I also have 4 sons, 2 of which I haven't seen for over 15 years. They are close to their dad who abused me for 13 years of marriage, guess they don't remember that, especially since he has money. My third son I finally saw after 14 years and we are growing closer. I guess every family has someone who either turns away or makes us choose to turn away. After all these years, I've come to realize that it's going to be them that suffers in the end. There are some things you can't take back. I would give anything for 5 more minutes with my mom.
Stand by your choice, it's the right one! |