In some ways, I'm in similar situations. My mom was my best friend growing up and shortly after I turned 18 she passed away. So I know that feeling when you are out shopping and you see a two ladies who are so obviously mom and daughter and yes, it makes me sad and I know that I am missing out on that. For me it's a bit more final than for you but I still find myself wondering sometimes what things would have been like for me and my kids if my mom was still here with us. My dad on the other hand is still alive and pretty much like your mom. He was physically abusive to my mom even as she was dieing from cancer. I've reached a point in my life where I've forgiven him but yet I'm not really sure that I want to open my life to him either....
I also find that I really miss my sister more this time of year. We always used to make plans together and now her husband is with another woman and things are just so different..... |