Looking to see if I have any short hair Cookie pics, but I dont. I never had him with short hair. Only when he was way younger like 3 yrs ago and then he had a puppy cut and the hair colors were totally different. Not like now.
Today we took a few pictures of Monica. I just saw them now on the computer and I just keep seeing Cookie in her face. She looks so much like him in the face. Today we took her and Angel to Petco for to take a Picture with Santa ,proceeds went to the Humane Society.
I brushed her and put a red satin dress that I got from the Dollar Tree. Yes this red dress for $1.00
As I brushed her ,got her dressed. She went straight to muy husband and patted him on the leg so he could carry her. My husband has not allowed himself to really breakdown over Cookie. He would have tears every once in a while but today he just lost it,totally lost it in the bathroom when he saw her face. He kept blaming himself for everything. Blaming himself for calling Cookie a girl or a sissy because he was so sweet and quiet, he would tease me about that. I always knew he was joking but even that makes him feel terrible. I told him over and over that it was not his fault and I know how much he loves that little lil man.
Last night Monica pushed the sheets and crawled under looked for my tummy and turned around in a circle and pushed her back against me and curled up. Again my hubby saying "OMG this cant be" That has always been Cookie's ritual. Never liked to sleep on top of the sheets , always under.
After an hour or so that we were watching TV I felt like everything was ok and all of this was a bad dream. I felt like Cookie was there in bed with us. I took a peek and saw Monica sleeping and this hit me all over again. "Could it really be that he is not in the house with us?!" I didnt cry and stayed quiet, I didnt want to upset my husband anymore.
We took these today. The last picture is of Cookie. This is why I say Some of Monica's pics remind me of him
I will never be able to explain how Cookie changed my life and my heart.
My husband sees that I am giving affection to Monica and I told him " I will most likely fall in love with this little girl for sure, she is just too sweet. But Cookie stole my heart" |